I refuse!!!

     Today I'm a little pissed off. It's hard enough to keep one's head on straight without opening the computer in the morning and being greeted by "cruel month for workers", and "jobless rate jumps blah blah", and "depression on the way". What is the real point to all that? I wonder what the people who actually have to write that stuff are thinking about the impact that it has on individuals, let alone the public as a whole. I'm not blaming the people who are actually setting those words to type but I do wonder if they think about what the impact is on individuals or the public as a whole. Seriously, when that is the first thing I see in the morning what am I suppose to do with that information; remain frightened and depressed possibly from the previous mornings reports? Am I suppose to go ahead and take the shot, go ahead and make that slice in my wrist, go ahead and flee the country? I am already using a good portion of my precious moments trying to fight off panic when it decides to rear it's ugly head and I'm sure I'm not alone. But then the battle becomes much bigger as I/we must fight off the attacks of the information system itself.  Sure, these are hard times, but we should not have to fight for our happiness, and loveliness, and creativity, and all things positive that give us acceleration to hope, just because things are tough. Fuck you media headlines!!! I am so pissed off right now. I want to be stable and grounded, and I hate when people use words like that but I just did. And I'm for the first time that I can remember tearfully angry that someone is trying to recklessly instill fear and panic into not just me but the entire public when that is the last thing we need right now. I have to end this rant somehow and go get myself back on track. I know that this media scare tactic is not new but my desire to move forward and upward is.  I can only imagine my feelings multiplied by millions of people who read that shit; the pall of emotional pollution that must be hanging over us all. I am doing my best to keep hope alive. Keep alive. Live.